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this is coming from someone with awful ADHD that i cant allow myself to hinder or sabotage my life because of mental health issues
thinking of seeing a therapist again because i don't want to be people who can't do anything anymore
imagining a world where i am people who can do anything ..... i hope that is me this year
Jan 13, 2025
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I’ve had a lot of big ideas in my head lately that all sound great in theory, but thinking about what I have to do to finish them is building up dispiriting feelings. Realizing that I’ve used those feelings in the past as an excuse to not have to try, so for the rest of the year, I’m reminding myself to see things through regardless of the outcome.
Apr 10, 2024
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i don’t have autism i don’t think, but i do have adhd, social anxiety, and dysthymia. i also am not accepted or supported by my parents when it comes to my queerness (which isn’t neurodivergence lol, but it often comes up when i think about “what life could be like”).
i often would get stuck thinking about how much more successful in life i would be had i been supported in the beginning. if only i had been taken to a therapist when i first asked for support, or maybe had my parents been more open minded about lgbtq ppl.. maybe i wouldn’t have anxiety about the smallest things, or depressive episodes where i can’t get out of bed the entire day. maybe i would be the son they could show off to their friends.
this type of thinking kind of consumed me for the majority of last year, as i was getting used to living outside of my parents’ house. i was very depressed and often fantasized about what it would be like if things were different. however, earlier this year, i think i realized that staying in this mindset really held me back. i was thinking “what if” about things that i now (as an independent adult) have a moderate amount of control over!! i could become the support and acceptance i was seeking.
it also really helped me to shift my thinking on my own neurodivergence. i often thought of it as one of my biggest obstacles (which it can be at times). but when you learn the right coping mechanisms and ignore what society deems as “normal”, it can be a little more manageable. for me, i’m very sensitive to noise and lighting. wearing my noise canceling headphones (even in public where i feel most insecure about wearing them, and while i do chores) and making sure there’s no overhead lighting has helped me sm in terms of productivity and living happily in general. remembering that normal doesn’t really exist and there are no rules to living, has kind of opened me up to a whole new world that i didn’t know was possible for me. living is actually awesome sauce, when there is no one in ur ear telling u ur “rude” or ”weird” or “annoying“ or “awkward” for living in a way that is most comfortable for u.
the ppl who turned away from u and hurt u just because u are autistic, were simply not meant to be in ur life!!! they obviously couldn’t handle ur autistic swag. know that u r the normal one for just living ur life, and ppl who try to bring others down or judge unnecessarily are the weird ones.. also society is not built to support everyone, so plz dont judge urself for having to find joy through unconventional avenues. that is a reflection on societal expectations and how flawed our society is, not on u!
anyways i hope maybe this helps a little. 🫶🐛 ty for reading my essay and sorry if it sounds so motivational speech core. it just makes me sad when i see ppl who have similar negative thoughts as i do when it comes to this stuff RAAAAAAHHFFFRRR 🤖🤖🤖🤖🤖🤖🤖🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦅🦅🦅
Mar 18, 2025
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maybe that sounds a little annoying, but i used to wait around for a surge of manic energy to hit me in order to find the motivation to get out of bed and do things. these days, i try to remind myself that i matter, and if i care about myself then i should do things for my mind and body that are fulfilling. this isn’t perfect, and there are definitely still bad days. but you owe it to yourself to try, i hope things get easier :)
May 6, 2024
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one day i was on the work computer and i wanted to find more Fruits Magazines and came across dozens of pdfs on are.na!!! it's catered towards design and architecture students it's the loveliest tool as a casual internet user. it's self financed with premiums (no ads) plus it's minimalistic and easy to use - it organizes pictures, websites, and pdfs into these sections called channels. there is no algorithm it's purely based on hunter and gatherer vibes i started using it recently and have found countless channels of historical zines, 90s/2000s perfume ads, bare bone websites built with just html, old blogs, and so much more. i think perfectly imperfect and are.na are proof that the internet is well and alive!
just attached one of the channels i follow it's a collection of vintage Japanese advertisements and graphics :*)
Dec 24, 2024
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weird as in cool and eclectic and niche
i follow an artist who works with mold, a guy who does art on Desmos, an old guy who makes milkshakes, a collector of Japanese photography, a ginger guy whose name i can't remember but they're super into ancient languages and translation, a number of fashion archivists and fibre artists, and more
instagram will be more fun and you will scroll reels less
Dec 24, 2024
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i love this band so much. i saw them x3 during their residency tour this year and each time was otherworldly. james murphy is a phenomenal performer and a magician at what he does. i can't get enough of them i will see them until my pockets run dry
the first time i was with a friend and her friend. we drank red wine beforehand. i cried a lot at this show. seeing the disco ball light up and hearing all my friends for the first time was breathtaking
the second time i was with a friend and we did substances. substances make everything undeniably better i will not be obnoxious about that but i felt like james murphy was singing inside of my bloodstream and every instrument on stage echoed inside me esp nancy's keyboard
the third time i was completely sober! this was very emotional. this was the last tour and the last time i knew i was going see my friend since they live many miles away
Dec 24, 2024