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Todays photo is an hour late, and I realize that I’m counting on nobody but myself to keep myself accountable. I feel like I‘ve wronged myself, but growth only halts if you don’t let yourself breathe.
Anywho, here’s this ray of sun. I’ve been having trouble fixing my sleep schedule, if anyone’s ever heard of revenge bedtime procrastination, I think I fall victim (or rather punish myself) to it. Any tips on how to overcome it? Somehow I convince myself it’s better to stay up..
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This is a real thing. It’s also the reason I’m currently awake. Still not sure why it feels right, but it really does. Oh, so right.
Feb 7, 2024
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funny thing about doing therapy is that now I understand that I’m punishing myself by not going to sleep bc I didn‘t did anything I’m supposed to yesterday, so I say to myself that I’m going to do while I keep myself awake late night but clearly this don’t work (bc the true goal is not doing anything, is just punish myself with no sleep bc in my brain I don’t deserve it)
So now I’m still anxious and guilty but also self aware
1% better everyday guys 👍🏻
Mar 18, 2025
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my eyes say sleep, my brain says sleep, my heart says “just 5 more mins”
Feb 22, 2024
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I get crushes on people easy.
I sort of imagine a life with someone only after thinking about them a couple times. right now I have about four crushes, but I think it’s my want of a relationship, so so bad.
Equally I do not admit feelings for people. I would rather encourage someone to get in a relationship with someone else than admit my feelings, it’s like tending to an overgrown garden.
Jan 24, 2025
I used to have a “littlest pet shop” YouTube channel and was curious about others relationship with toys. I still collect toys because I don’t think being an adult means you need to stop.
Jan 5, 2025
recently I had this guy who asked me out and the date went well, but the second time we hung out the vibe was so rancid it could be cut with a knife. I apologized and asked hey what’s up and he said nothing.
The day after he just said well we don’t vibe at all and I tried to ask to expand on it (I’m autistic as fuck, I really try to learn from every relationship even flings like this) and he blocked me.
The moral of the lesson is: Shouldn’t give men calico critters even if they get in a car crash.
Feb 18, 2025