I will create endless Pinterest boards with thousands of pins creating the aesthetic of lives I wished I lived down to the napkins in the house I want. Iāll curate playlists for these lives, read Fragrantica reviews to find a perfume that would match this persona, and write short stories about what their daily life would be. With all this time I could just be building those lives irl, but alas it wouldnāt be my vice now would it.
Dec 30, 2024
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I have for the longest time had a long ongoing story in my mind that I think about whenever Iām bored.
Waiting in the line at a grocery store? Sitting in a waiting room?
Let me think about this story with these characters in my head.
Free TV with my imagination.
I have tried writing it down several times but it just steals the magic. There can be plot holes and things that donāt make sense because nobody knows about this.
Probably a symptom of my mental illness but I quite enjoy it.
Feb 8, 2025
Big navel gazer here; I often start in a delusionally romantic state of viewing things and evolve to a kind of reserved pragmatism through the process critical examination. Lately, writing has been like preserving these ephemeral states in amber, coexisting in a state of delicious permanence I can return to, instead of allowing them to wash away with the tides. This ultimately helps me engage more deeply with the world.
Jan 14, 2025
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I wanna be rockstar, I wanna direct porn, I wanna own a cinema, i wanna own a diner, Iāll name it after me, and Iāll put little vhs TVs in every corner (where the angels would normally be) I wanna drive a cab in Vegas Robert de niro style, i wanna lurk at the edges of weddings and document all the love around me , and get paid for witnessing something so profoundly special. I wanna make movies. I wanna get beat up at least once. I wanna be a social worker but Iād take that shit home with me. I could work with addicts even though Iād just be doing it to pretend I could fix mom and dad. I wanna be adoooooooooooooooooooored
I wanna get married and have lots of kids, Iāll make em my little tribe , and when they piss me off Iāll make em tend to the crops and gardens adorning our god-given glorious property. son, you git yer fawkin behind outside and pick us some goddamn blueberries! I wanna have lots of windows and live in a house , a real one, not a trailer or a converted shed. I wanna turn tricks, and I wanna have wings. I wish I could have afforded to go to film school
I wish mom got me braces when I was little, and I wish people didnāt look at my teeth. I wish grandma didnāt overdose after being sober for over a decade. i wish I felt like I had a future at all
I wish that doing the dishes didnāt make me cry
And I wish that I didnāt feel small
Apr 23, 2024
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It just makes the dopamine not as easy to access. For example, swiping between posts takes forever compared to insta or tiktok, if i go out of the app for a minute, the post i was looking at will be gone so i have to dig to find it again, and i canāt seem to select and delete multiple words so i have to delete entire sentences individually which makes me more mindful about what iām typing. idk i just feel that this app is making me rediscover that good things are inconvenient some times and that thatās rewarding.
Dec 30, 2024
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iāve spent most of my life searching for romantic love and thinking something was wrong with me because i never got it. i prayed even though iām not religious, i had a box filled with manifestations of the āperfectā guy under my pillow, i tried to go after guys i knew were meh because i thought u could make the love blossom, i did honey jar spells, i changed the way i looked, the way i spoke, my interests, i did EVERYTHING. this all resulted in a slew of horrendous situationships that tore down my self-esteem. after these, i definitely worked on myself and became much more confident and sure of myself, but still thought that a relationship would be the thing to make me truly happy. at 20, i had my first real boyfriend and he was āperfectā, or at least everything i thought i had ever wanted. he was attractive, tried to pay for everything, planned the most thoughtful dates, went out of his way to see me, was incredibly intelligent, kind, loyal, hardworking, took care of me when i was sick, and even respected the fact that iām entirely celibate (like what 20 y/o guy is ok w that??). i ended up breaking up with him after a few months because i realized that a relationship was not what i actually wanted or needed, it was just what i thought about 24/7. not saying this is you, but the steps i took after our breakup might help with your situation. diversify and expand your sources of happiness/love as no one source will make you feel truly fulfilled. i started by doing 4 things: something that expanded my mind, something that earned me money, something that fulfilled me creatively, and something that fed me spiritually. for me this was college classes, a job at a restaurant, painting, hanging out with the people that i love more often, and joining a bunch of clubs at my school. i think our society places so much emphasis on romantic love, but other types, especially the love i receive from my friends has been the most unconditional and satiating. lastly, (again not saying this is you, itās just a common reality) expecting one person to satisfy all of your need for love is not only dangerous for you (if they leave, youāll be crushed) but also unfair to them. maybe iām just yapping to yap, but i hope this was helpful.
Jan 1, 2025
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Just saying yes to everything and going for it under the guide that this is my one year experiment with no repercussions to see how my life will change when I actually do the things I want to.
Dec 30, 2024