I’ve recently begun to think I’m extremely beautiful, something I’ve never consistently thought about myself. It feels so silly, and I’m sometimes baffled by it, but I’m also enjoying it a lot.
I’ve been particularly gorgeous lately (unfortunately, my curse of becoming more beautiful with each passing day is still ongoing) but I’m at my most powerful when I disregard such trifling things.
I had been doing it with makeup for Going Out purposes forever, and finally did it for real a few weeks ago. I was scared because frankly it’s the kind of thing a Confident Person does, and I ain’t one of those. But I did it, and it has forced me to be more confident in my appearance because I did something wacko to it and have received a lot of positive feedback and I feel mysterious and oOoOh LaLa and Targaryen.
In high school I would do insane intricate beautiful makeup everyday and style my hair so cool and then I was extremely depressed and stopped wearing makeup or caring about my appearance… i finally feel like myself again but I lost the ability to do makeup and hair but you know what: Idc 💖I think my bad makeup and ficked up hair is now what makes me Maddie, and I love her🌠light eyeshadow on lids only because it’s easier to blend and powder foundation… easy peasy ⭐️I no longer compare myself to other women because I am me and they will also never be me … and that’s awesome:) 🤠 also middle finger is the Best accessory 🖕🏻#true
Last night I spent 5 hours with my friends in my living room instead of doing my work, and at first I thought “wow I was not productive tonight,” but then I realized that hanging out with friends and letting my mind rest is incredibly productive!! I feel so refreshed this morning
How lucky am I that I actually miss school when I’m at home, and miss home when I’m at school??? Being able to miss something, to look forward to returning, is such a privilege, and I will never take it for granted
I feel like I’ve spent a lot of my life ridiculously concerned with being annoying, and I still felt unlikeable; now I’ve stopped caring as much, and it’s scary, but also I’m happy and I’m not hurting anyone !!! So be annoying !!! You’ll find your people who enjoy and love you !!! Fuck the rest !!!