This is Mary Oliver’s poem that, in a family of singers, helped me love my voice when I saw myself as not sharing that talent with the other women in my family:
I Worried
Mary Oliver
I worried a lot. Will the garden grow, will the rivers
flow in the right direction, will the earth turn
as it was taught, and if not how shall
I correct it?
Was I right, was I wrong, will I be forgiven,
can I do better?
Will I ever be able to sing, even the sparrows
can do it and I am, well,
hopeless.
Is my eyesight fading or am I just imagining it,
am I going to get rheumatism,
lockjaw, dementia?
Finally, I saw that worrying had come to nothing.
And gave it up. And took my old body
and went out into the morning,
and sang.
I swear I’m Ariana Grande in that mf, hitting those high notes even tho my voice is not suited for them whatsoever. I advise everyone to just sing that shit with your chest and be silly with it. It feels amazing.
autism has helped me become who I am as a person and explored many things I have loved over the years. it is not vaccine caused nor called the "stupid diagnosis"