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It started off as a drunken ki, but now it’s been seven days and I can’t stop thinking about cigs and my fashion magazines.
NY will be the site of my ruin.
Aug 26, 2024
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It’s been 8 months since my last smoke, the longest I’ve gone in 12 years.
Some unconventional tips:
- being delusional is effective. I tell myself cigarettes are bad luck. If I smoke one, something bad will happen.
- My relationship to cigarettes was spiritual, every single one was a little prayer. To fill the gap, I leaned into woo: candles, tarot, talking to god.
- Cigs were my edge, but they numbed me. To keep that rebellion alive, I leaned into things that scared me: fashion choices, challenging long held values, leaning into my queerness, wasting time.
- Somatic release. Shake your leg, wring your hands, go to the gym. Also, going to the gym gets a lot easier when you make the conscious choice to not hate on the bros or influencers.. everyone’s trying to find their place. Love > Snark
- It only gets easier if you know exactly WHY you want to smoke in the first place, and address the root causes with mindset or lifestyle changes. Quitting cold turkey without change is not enough.
Tag: nicotine quit smoking
2d ago
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started buying my own cigs at the start of last year to get through a rough patch. it was me and my marlboro golds against the world back then. was too broke to afford to buy them super regularly so i'd have to ration over weeks. and luckily (not really) my friends also started smoking around the same time so i could bum off them if need be. i've been quitting since i properly started and i haven't bought a pack in a while now. moved onto strictly social smoking but i go out often enough it makes this a tad redundant. i don't desperately fiend for it as much, i could hardly finish the last one i had but god does a drunk cig feel good af.
also as someone who does biomed, your reminder and mine that smoking is really bad for you btw!!! we really need to invent smoking that isn't a health hazard.
Apr 9, 2024
Guys last night I hit the cig. like 6 cigs. The vibes were too up and after a rainy city bike ride over the bridge 2 bush dubs I could not resist. #reset
Dec 30, 2024
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Anyways here’s the song of the day w special mentions:
Welcome to My Island (Remix)- Caroline Polachek
Our Day Will Come- Amy Winehouse
Aug 25, 2024
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Only got 5 hours of sleep and in that short period of time I had a numerous amount of nightmares…all in succession. Literally feel like I need to meditate or something to change the course of my fate…. bc that shet was crazy
Aug 25, 2024
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after 2 months smoke free i have decided i will treat myself tomorrow to another pack of cigarettes. all because a cute guy in my class said he had a smoke this morning b4 class, and since then all i can think about is having a cig. i lost the battle.
Oct 11, 2024