im gonna ramble for a second. i have a real distaste for dating apps, but despite this i still donāt delete them. a small part of me thinks itāll work out in my favor one day. but shoutout the loyal storylikers iāve gained from failed hinge talking stages hahahaā¦ i have a very loose definition of ātypeā in terms of physicality, and even then someone physicality is never a deal breaker. usually. i donāt think i am meant to meet people this way. and i think a lot of people also say this so i am not original in this feeling, but i think i need to fall in love with a friend, someone that there is already a baseline compatibility with, a mutual appreciation already there. all the fanfic i read as a kid was a friends to lovers trope! and i think it works for a reason. that being said its scary to become friends with someone and then think your feelings are further than platonic, because now its hard to decipher between what could be deliberately flirty or just like. your standard hang ykno? i still have never successfully deciphered this so i donāt wanna stand on my soapbox and act like i have any real expertise. just thinking out loud. iāve been kinda lonely recently and everyone around me has been getting into relationships, this venus retrograde is no joke haha. and the added nuance to the lesbian dating experience, ive been feeling more isolated than usual. sorry this oneās a bummer a little!!! maybe i should stick to album / song reviews