I was in an incredibly similar state for too many months lately, and it's definitely very tough to tackle! I felt like I was waiting around for something to finally hold my interest or inspire me enough to focus, and nothing kept happening. I kept trying to pick an "enriching" subject of interest for myself: painting, writing, collaging, etc. and couldn't really get consistently motivated about any of them. But recently, there was a local independent theatre festival across from my work and I decided to check it out. And IDK how, but it has really lessened my rut. It was a great way to open myself to new experiences without the pressure being on me to produce something. Just putting yourself in spaces where you can enjoy yourself and exist around other people without the pressure to do anything specific helps a lot. I still think the solo hobbies are a good pursuit, but it's difficult to access your own passions after being dormant for so long, and sometimes you need to watch other people do it first to inspire yourself. Trying to find meaning on my own was like trying to summon something from within myself that wasn't there right now.