My sleep routines are complete chaos. in the couple years after being diagnosed with CFS I managed to get a routine that was: bath, meditate, read, journal, sleep. No phone for an hour before bed, Iād literally leave it downstairs. Audiobook to sleep. I think back to this with bemused fondness. During this time I was incredibly isolated so didnt really have anyone to message or things to look at on my phone anyway. As soon as I had friends, a group chat, a boyfriend, a life etc that all goes out the window. I am all or nothing. life is simply too stimulating for my brain, having passions and relationships is exciting and when I have them (which thank god I do though) I am thinking about and interacting with them always. My bedtime routine is sometimes good and Iāll read and journal and sleep well. At others Iām up scrolling til 2am, I sometimes watch ASMR to sleep, if Iām really feeling bad Iāll watch Howlās Moving Castle. Some days I just put on an audiobook and sleep immediately, others Iām fighting for my life until the wee hours. i am a fully grown adult who once had to go on sleeping pills because I couldnāt stop compulsively knitting until 7am during a particularly stressful and exciting essay deadline week. Depending on my pain/exhaustion/adrenaline levels my bedtime can be anywhere from 10pm to 3am. I have never fully written this out, and despite all this I have never really considered myself someone who struggles with sleep lmao.
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Lawful-Good: Sleepytime tea, reading an actual book in bed until 10 PM, doing breathing exercises on my back in the dark until I drift off
Neutral-Neutral: Waiting until 11 PM on Sunday to catch my show, feeling snacky, getting into bed just before midnight with a stomach full of night cereal
Chaotic-Evil: Espresso after dinner followed by digestifs, staying up until 1:30 AM watching YouTube crap until I start nodding off on the couch, deciding it's too late to brush my teeth, climbing into bed in the fetal position, mind racing wondering if I remembered to turn off the stove even though I hadn't used it since the day before
Apr 26, 2024
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Lawful Good: in bed by 9pm on a Sunday evening, full day of physical activity and a very plant dense dinner, followed by long shower with exfoliating + deep conditioning
Neutral: scrolling on my phone or reading a book/magazine till 11 following a day of work and dinner, maybe dog walking before
Chaotic Evil: Uber home between 3-4am, I close my eyes and feel my head pounding and temples vibrating while wrestling twisted sheets. The visuals behind closed eye lids are indescribable and my thoughts cease to shrink. I probably get up to pee a lot in between trying to fall asleep, my ears hurt. I hear the birds chirping
Apr 26, 2024
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lawful good: i do some creative journaling and join my boyfriend in bed at 10 with sleepy tea, reading ātil 11 and then turning the light off and letting my mind wander until i finally drift off
neutral: i fall asleep between 11 and midnight while scrolling, having washed my face but maybe having not completed one of the following: doing my skincare regimen, brushing my teeth, or turning the light off
chaotic evil: i fall asleep on the floor as punishment for spending the day doing nothing i was supposed to, usually after a few days of little to no sleep
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