there are things i think are weird
but it’s not that they are actually
weird
it’s that they are unusual
or they bring me a new perspective —
one that i’m not so used to
— like seeing an orange tractor on the side of the road
surrounded by three men in orange
construction suits
in the middle of the french countryside
or the fact that
at the beach yesterday, the foggy glimpse of
land,
the island we could see in the distance
was the british island of jersey.
it made me think about how the world
is really so small
and that we, humans, are the ones
that make it seem so big and
vast.
we are the ones that over complicate
over think
over populate
over build
over use
over dignify ourselves
when we are just merely
visitors in this never ending universe.
and somehow, in some
situations that idea is
safety and
comfort. it’s refreshing
to know that as messy and as complicated
our lives are, none of it
actually matters. because if nothing matters, we can get away with a lot.
we can be mean and
crazy and stupid
and in love
and happy and hungry for more
and sad
and lively and alone.
but then i remember that “we are not a drop in the ocean we are the ocean in a drop”
and we don’t have to pretend that our
emotions are meaningless
and that our lives aren’t meant to be lived
and we aren’t meant to be thought about and
cared for and loved.
the things we feel are real and they hurt.
they are painful.
they are beautiful.
they stay and they pass.
just like the fog that covers up jersey —
just like the tractor on the side of the road —
just like us.