do i get a tattoo? do i go home? do i fast? do i meditate? do i cry? do i run further away? do i respond to all my emails? do i donate half my wardrobe? do i isolate myself? do i get rid of my social media? do i read? do i cry harder? do i laugh? do i say mean things to myself until i feel found? do i go back to the city? do i become a new person? do i write? do i finally bring my laptop in to be fixed? idk what do you do?